Truth is.....

Here are some of my... confessions, beliefs, thoughts, and assorted ways for one to get to know me I suppose. Some of them will be more serious and some won't. It is what it is.

Truth is running before going to a Zumba class is a bad idea.
Yeah, I may have done this on Tuesday night and may have felt like passing out half way into the class.

Truth is there's no reason to not take chances. Unless they're dangerous I suppose.
Simply, go ask the guy/girl out! What is there to lose? I don't think there's often much to lose but often more to gain. Why not join Singing Valentine's when you're not in choir? Why not use that to go kiss random hot guys on Valentine's day?! Exactly. Also, totally did that this year. And had a blast I might add. Go ahead and rock that bright lipstick and those heels, if you like it who cares what others think, right?

Truth is I think the last guy I made out with may have broken my nose.
I wish I were joking but omg does the cartilage in the bridge of my nose hurt.

Truth is I don't want a date for prom.
Honestly, I can be confident and look hot on my own, I don't need someone by my side to feel that way. Now I'm not saying I'd reject everyone, I am however saying that if I go with someone--- don't take it too seriously. Senior year prom? I just want to have fun and make some memories.

Truth is public speaking used to be my biggest fear.
Then I joined debate because it was something I wanted to do, and then I had to get over my fear. But I don't think I really did until this current speech season where I was giving a speech that I wrote and that was therefore rather personal that I really did get over it. Getting over that fear has made me feel a lot more fearless and more confident. I am extremely comfortable walking up to just about anyone and starting a conversation.

Now to be more serious...

Truth is I don't need most people in my life, I choose to have them there.
So screw me over and hurt me, and I'll want you out of it. I may not immediately cut all ties, but I'll wish I could.

Truth is be blunt, not indecisive.
As cliche as it is "say what you mean to say." I've seen so many people, and I myself, have been hurt when people don't do this. If something's on your mind. Speak it, what good does it do to hide anything or keep it secret. Which sort of leads to my next one which is a big one for me.

Truth is: Don't lie. Be honest.
In a real life example, if we're dating, don't go out with another girl behind my back. Have the courage to say to my face that you don't want to be with me. Honesty is such a big deal for me. I hate lies with such a burning passion that if I were religious I would hope there is a special place in hell for liars to rot. If you can't admit who you are or your actions, why do it in the first place. I find lying to be so cowardly. Not that I'm perfect at this myself, I've lied to other people as well as myself, I just think it's something everyone needs to work on.

Truth is I try to hide all my emotions.
Despite how successful or unsuccessful I am at this, I am shamefully extremely emotional and emotionally fragile. In elementary school my teachers would tell my parents I was overly sensitive and not just that, but I let it show so much. I'd really like to think I do a better job of concealing it now but I don't know, I can't observe myself per say.

Truth is I want to get married. Someday. Maybe.
I always say I don't want to get married or have kids. But I'm not even sure how true that is, I like the whole romantic idea of falling in love and growing old together with all the glorious memories to accompany it all. I also know how damn much I care about my career and how I don't want anything to hold me back. And I realize, the right person wouldn't hold me back. Problem is, I fear I won't find that person.

Truth is I'm scared to let myself love someone again.
As soon as you love someone they have so much power and potential to hurt you.

Truth is I hate superficiality.
It's the "Hey, how are you?"
"Good, you?"
"Good, thanks!"
Even if one or both people is having a horrible idea. We always respond with "good" and by all means, plenty of times I bet it is good! But it's the times it's not where I wish people just answered with how it is.

Truth is I am so indecisive.
I never really even know what I want myself. I should work on this...

Truth is when I look back on some memories I still don't know whether or not to laugh and smile and enjoy them or to cry because they're over.