Well after seeing my background on here... Yeah, it needs to change it's not me.
I'm not who I was before and I'm not sure if that's a good thing.
I like to think I'm stronger, but yet I make myself throw up food, I starve myself if I have the self-control to, I cut myself.. So I'm not sure. I know where I want to go with my life and what I want to do, as for where to go emotionally and mentally? I haven't a clue. It still hurts how we ended, how much of us was fabricated in my head to be more than it was.. Or so you leave me to believe. It still hurts how you couldn't and still can't seem to see how amazing I am and why you shouldn't have been able to walk away from me as easily as you did. It still hurts how you lied and let me fall in love with you when you didn't give a damn. It still hurts how we say we're friends but you don't care or talk to me anymore. How I no longer exist in your world, as if I never did. It still hurts how you left me alone and like this.