This whole J-term thing has actually allowed for me to find glimpses of free time on the weekends, well for now. Anyways, society uses the begining of the year to plan out what changes they want to make for the following year and how they want to change themselves. This year I of course fell into this pattern right away but with a couple weeks time I realized how pointless it was. I did the same thing last year, had all of these changes I wanted to make and I really don't think any of those lasted (which doesn't bother me, for the record). But it did lead me to this light-bulb-flickering sort of moment in my mind. All of the changes I'd hoped to make last year went out the window as reality walked in the door. Reality is there's more to life than just yourself. There's people, events, plans, so on and so on that are a part of everyday life and from reflecting on where I was last year, it's everyday interactions that really changes you more than you do.
I know for me personally, it's a damned good thing I didn't adhere to all of my resolutions I had made last year. About a year or so ago last year I wasn't nearly as happy as I am now. I think a lot of just life happenings and such over the past year have led me to be a lot less emotional and more detached from people, which sounds extremely negative. But for me has been good. I used to struggle a lot with my self worth and would use other people's perceptions of me to decide what I felt I should be worth. I have since learned that self worth contains the word 'self' for a reason, I no longer feel the need to waste my time on people who leave me to wait around for them to decide I'm worth their time. Which is where the less emotional/attached thing comes in nicely, it's easy to walk away from just about anything, no strings attatched. Leaving me an overall more satisfied and happy person, cliche but I'm pretty set that if someone isn't going to last in my life then they don't. Oh well.
So as for what changes I want to make for the following year. None. Okay, that's a lie. I'd like to be healthier and that garb. And I'm trying committing to being vegetarian (I've been successful so far!). But those minor tidbits are lifestyle not personal changes. If there are any personal changes during the following year, none of them will be by choice. I'd much rather just let life happen and react accordingly :)
