First off, yes, I have not blogged in a while. Sorry if anyone actually reads this and likes updates on my life. Another idea is to check Facebook or Twitter, then again this is much personal.
Tonight I was talking about churches with my good friend Connor, and so basically I was going to talk all about that because in short there is a pretty extremely personal story in there but it's not really something I share with next to anyone because I'm still not sure if it affected how I think of church and religion and boys and other things. I think it did then and it doesn't now and now I am who I am take it or leave it. But then...I don't know if there's words for randomly being incredibly frustrated despite how perfect everything is. And that's the thing, it seems like nothing stays perfect forever so I feel like I'm just waiting to see what will and does go wrong.
Hearing a song and wondering if it's genuine, do people ever actually have moments like that? And do they recognize them when they do? I don't know either. I'm pretty sure anything with emotions or feelings is where I shutdown and collapse, I know it's not my strong point. Sometimes I just want to fast-forward and know what will happen and then live it, knowing the result(s) and being prepared for it. I suppose that would take all the excitement out of life and chances and opportunities, so scratch that idea. There's a reason I only sometimes wish I knew how everything turned out.
Now to go back to who I am in real life, away from the security of being letters typed on a computer screen. Life really is going so well right now! For example I have a boyfriend who treats me better than any guy ever has and made me wake up to the fact that's how everyone in the past should have treated me. It's entirely different, but by far a good different. For senior project I am working with one of my idols, Dr. Susan Myster, and she's giving me consent to take Human Osteology this fall despite lacking the prerequisites, she's provided me the most amazing opportunity a high school student with my dreams could ask for, and I get to work with her for the next four years! Other good things would include the fact that I'll be receiving some form of a scholarship tomorrow night, I get to present my project after that, attend a pool party with best friends from high school the next night. And then Friday, my grandpa is driving down form MI, I haven't seen him in literally years and I don't believe he has came to Minnesota since I was a kid. My uncle from California is flying in and I haven't seen him in a year or so as well. And the fact that they are all coming for me? Because of the fact that I am graduating? I am so lucky to have a family that cares for me like that and wants to see me succeed in life. It's a great feeling. So then Friday night, Chaska's Class of 2012 graduates and we spend the night together rejoicing in our achievement and remembering the good stories of the days we're leaving behind.
Hmm, so that feels a bit like a rant but there's a variety of topics in there so maybe it's an accurate reflection of my mind.
I have had a lovely day. Upon arriving home from Hamline at approximately 11:00 I slept. Until 3:30. I NEVER get that much sleep. It was a very nice change to do absolutely nothing today (aside from sleep and read). Anyways, I also have made my status as a freshmen in college official. This morning, (after sleeping over at Hamline for the first part of their orientation program) I registered for classes and got my ID. And I can't say that I'm upset with picture, it only lasts for the next four years. No big deal. 
